A mind of an Introvert

Holaaaa Ngetes posting pake blogger apps nya android nih... Malem ini gw... Abis chit chat sama temen2 di BBG smp. Berhubung salah satu personilnya tinggal di dunia belahan amerika sono jadi kadang kita yg begadang kalo udah keasyikan ngobrol,dianya mah asik aja disana masih pagi/siang hehehe tapi tak mengapa. Ini satu-satunya grup di BBG yang gw pantengin.selebihnya gw ga gt aktif. Kenapa?karena gw seneng bisa ngobrol dengan mereka,they are my support group,personilnya juga macem2 karakter mulai dari mama dedeh yg suaminya pengusaha sampe si tukang ngelawak yg lagi hamil. We share everything here..mulai dr resep2 masak,gosip2 anak temen smp lain, curcol, sampe omongan vulgar ala ibu2 pun ga ketinggalan ya. It's fun. (Deymm susah juga ya ngetik panjang pake touchscreen gini,typo mulu gw) Anyway, pembicaraan di BBG malem ini as usual topik mengalir ngalur ngidul dulu,semakin malam biasanya makin serius atau pernah juga makin vulgar hahaha...but not tonite karena si biang rusuhn...

I kept thingking about what my husband's told me last night kamu tuh ga pernah berusaha sungguh-sungguh dalam melakukan sesuatu at first i denied it, but then i thought he was true about that, i'm not pushing my self till the limit. i was, but not now. i built too much excuses, that now i'm a housewife slash worker slash mother that doesn't gave me much time to do what i want. couple years ago when i was at the boarding school in ponorogo, i always studied hard, because i thought i have to give my best so my parent will be proud of me and their money wouldn't wasted useless, as that time we don't live as good as now. and it's true that i made them proud of me, i was listed as the best 10 graduation. I want that positivie energy back, maybe i'm too tired and boring with my daily activity, but i don't want to let my self being "standard" people. i want to make my son or my next daughter (if God will give me) proud of me. I want them to...